I find myself thinking about all the what ifs?
What if I would have said yes instead of no or no instead of yes?
I find myself questioning everything that I did in the past and have done in the present.
Did I make the right choices at the wrong time or did I make all of the wrong choices at the right time?
I find myself wondering if I ever experienced what it feels like to be loved, then I think was I being loved and just didn’t recognize it?
I find myself wondering if I even knew what love was back then.
I find myself thinking and wondering, wondering and thinking.
As I think and wonder, I wonder and think of all of the possibilities of the past and present.
Arnittress Dowdy 