As I sit here I find myself
thinking of you,
Could it be that I’ve taken on anew?
I never thought our paths would
cross like this,
I feel as if I’ve reached a state of complete
Every day that goes by,
I feel as though I’m on a natural
I’m floating on this cloud
and everything no longer seems loud.
On this cloud the light
is oh so bright.
There’s no malice.
Everything is just so well balanced.
You help me maintain that sane piece of mind
Which makes things easier to find.
I sit here and think WHOA!
What a crazy blow.
The one hit from you
changes that gray sky to blue.
The more & more I think of you,
the more I realize that I have indeed
taken on anew.


Can you imagine having excruciating cramps every five minutes, then clots of blood flowing down? Placing pad on top of pad making it seem like you’re wearing a pamper? Finally the pain and the bleeding is too much the bear, so your mother takes you to the emergency room  where you find out that you are having a miscarriage. They pull this little thing out of you and place it in a jar. As you watch them so many emotions run through your mind. The first thought, why me? Second thought, why did this have to happen on Mother’s Day? After seeing your doctor, he tells you that you will never be able to have children. What? The? Fuck? Feels like a ton of bricks are hitting you and instead of falling down on you, they are all being thrown at you.

You eventually accept the fact that you can no longer have children and hope that whomever you end up falling in love with doesn’t want any. Sounds fucked up but hey it is what it is. Right?

Imagine months later you have praying hands touch you in a spot that only you know isn’t right. They place their hands in that spot and begin to pray and pray. 

Now imagine years after that, giving birth to two amazing, handsome, smart, energetic, funny, loving, outgoing boys. Or girls. 

After having a miscarriage, being told that I couldn’t and having praying hands, I birthed two boys. One came via c-section and the other I was able to push out.

As I watch them sleep or just stare at them I’m always amazed. I always said that if I ever had kids, I wanted a boy. Not one but two chose me to be their mother when they said it wasn’t possible.

I look at them and I truly believe nothing is impossible. So as I move forward, I know any and everything that I want for not only myself but for them is possible.

Got Me Hooked

The day I saw you,
I could have sworn that I saw you before.
Day in, day out I tried to remember.
I just kept coming up blank.
We became friends, then it
developed into something more.
Could you be the one for me?
Could I be the one for you?
Physically, Mentally, Sexually, Spiritually and Emotionally
You got me hooked.
I’m feelin’ you in more ways than one.
Do you feel me the way that I feel you?
Hope so cause,


Only time will tell when
you will be mine
And once you are mine everything
will be fine.
I had a dream that we
were walking hand in hand
The only thing that could be heard was our song that
was being played by the orchestra band.

Only time will tell when
I will be yours
Once I’m yours then everything will be ours.
I had a dream that you
made passionate love to me.
After you were done I felt
stress and worry free.

Only time will tell when
we will be one
Once you’re mine and I am yours,
together as one you & I.
But for now,
Only time will tell.


Is it true that age ain’t nothing
but a number?
Never in my life thus far,
have I come across a shining star.
Young in age but yet mature
in the heart,
What a wonderful piece of art.
It’s been 2 years in passing
and I can’t help but to
ask myself what if?
What if I would have said yes,
would I have been blessed?
What if I would have given
you the chance?
Would I have given anyone
a second glance?
Its kinda funny to think
what would it have been like
if you were my honey?
Sometimes I wonder what it
would it be like to laugh, cry or
just be in your arms?
Maybe 2 years ago I made
a mistake.
But is it true that
good things come to those who
So my question to you again,
Is it true that age ain’t nothing but
a number?


I took that glance
and spotted you.
Damn, could it be that
dreams do come true?

There hasn’t been a moment
when I want to shed a tear.
You’ve come and taken away
all my fear.

I’m out of the rain
And yet feel no pain.

I took that glance
and spotted you.
Damn, could it be that
dreams do come true?

As I look in the mirror
I see a reflection, a reflection
that still believes.
Have I found everything that I need
or has everything that I need found me?

I took that glance
and spotted you.
Damn, could it be that
dreams do come true?