We always think that when we have our lives planned and mapped out things will go accordingly. Not all the time, hell I started the first sentence over five times. I thought that I had my life all mapped out. Then again, that plan changed at least five or six times. I’ve learned through the years that life will not go as planned and sometimes you have to move according to how your life moves. Let me repeat, sometimes you have to move according to how your life moves. Let that sink in and marinate for a minute.
I thought that I was either going to live a single life without children and be happy; or, I was going to have kids and live in a house surrounded by a white picket fence. It was never in my plans to live the life I currently live. I’ve seen this life before through a different set of eyes and now I’m living it looking at it through a much older set of eyes and from a different perspective.
What kind of life? The single mother with two wonderful boys. I must admit even though I am single, I have a wonderful support team and my boys do get to see their father. This wasn’t a life that I mapped out for myself but I’m moving according to how life moved. It also doesn’t mean that I can’t travel, I just have two people to share the experience with. We don’t live in a house surrounded by a white picket fence but eventually we will get it. I just have to begin again, adjust and keep going.
I’ve also come to the realization that I do have to start over and you know what? At first I was scared but as I look back on some of the things that I’ve done in the past, I shouldn’t be scared because at some point in our lives we actually do have to start again.