Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?
Yesterday’s prompt was who could give you the greatest gift and I said I could give myself the greatest gift. I also said what that gift would be and wouldn’t you know it, today’s prompt goes with my gift to myself.
I spend more time thinking about my past than I do my future. Why? Because I think of all the mistakes that I’ve and I can’t let go of them or forgive myself to give myself time to think about the future. When I currently think about the future it goes as far as the weekend.
When I try to go deep into the future, my past mistakes and woulda couldas come to mind. My present mind thinks about the current present meaning, what am I going to type next. But at the end of the day when I’m trying to unwind all past mistakes made even for that day come to mind.
I think I think about the past because I wonder if I would have chose B instead of A or A instead of B and how would my life be different. I know that I haven’t forgiven myself for things I’ve done wrong and I can’t let go of that to move on.
One day l, I’ll forgive and FORGET with myself.
Arnittress Dowdy 